I am, for the first time in quite a while, between projects.
There is nothing on my easel. I finished my most recent piece on Thursday. I’m not preparing for an upcoming trip or workshop. I ran the 5K I’d been looking forward to yesterday, and then completed the online classes I’d been putting off. Most of the planning for “An Afternoon of Healing Arts” has been done, and we’ll have a work day at the end of this week to bring it all together. The last day of “Let’s Read Together” was yesterday. The next Healing Touch class in Raleigh isn’t until October. In-fact, I don’t even have anything in the plans for dinner today.
There is nothing on my easel today … literally or figuratively.
Women often ask me how I stay so positive. I keep myself very busy, I say … very busy. I choose compassion for myself and others, over anger or resentment … and I stay busy.
My world isn’t picture perfect. Should I choose to, I could lay down right now and allow the miserable slug of self-consumption to eat me alive. I will not.
I woke up with a fair amount of pain this morning. I chose to get out of bed at 6:00 and go for a barefoot walk in the wet grass. Walking, praying, grounding, listening to the wonderful sounds of the morning as the Mother Earth awoke. I felt better.
Just keep moving forward.
Projects keep me moving forward. They keep me from getting lost in the worry that my life is void of meaning and purpose. They keep me moving toward the time when my days will be spent close to my family.
So, yes, there are more projects coming … but not today.
It’s liberating, really … the words that just came to me were ‘negative space’, not sure why. (just looked it up … yep, I like negative space for today)
I have plenty on the horizon … but for today, nothing is waiting for me. A day, maybe a few days, in negative space … taking good care of me … preparing this vessel for the work she will do.
With big love, and wishes for all that bring you peace today,
I want to take up some of that negative space tomorrow at lunch. Plan to go to the farm and will be by the Raleigh area about lunch. Since you are not into any major projects now do you think you can work it in?
J Edsel
Wish I could go to the farm with you, Dad. I’d love to fill some of my (not so negative on Monday) space having lunch with you!
<3 Jane
Love the photo you have with this post. I see the interconnected nature of life – and yes that means the space between things ..your “negative space.”
I also find that projects keep me from worry – but I do appreciate the time in between, as long as it’s not too long. Perhaps that is what balance is.
How wonderful to allow oneself to be and connect – in the space between things/projects/activity.
I’ve been in a place of perpetually trying to accomplish things … while remembering to just ‘allow’ as much as I’m able. Just one day of knowing that I didn’t have to do anything, was a huge gift. Sometimes just a day is enough …
So good to hear from you Aileen ~
Take good care,
🙂 Jane